I realize I haven't blogged in a couple of days. Things are really busy for me right now but as soon as the craziness dies down, I will blog more often. Thanks for coming back to check out my blog. I really appreciate all my current readers, both those I know and those that I don't. It really means a lot to me that you care to come back to find out what's going on in my world. Thanks a lot! As you continue to read, may God make your eyes brighter! Don't laugh, say Amen! Now... I also pray that He lays it on your heart to follow my blog *Insert big monkey smile*
On a more serious note. On September 26th last year, I woke up early in the morning to help my mom iron her uniform for work. My mom is a nurse. I was her designated "iron-er". I either ironed for her late at night or I woke up first thing in the morning and got it done. Nothing she made me do, I actually enjoyed doing this for her. Anyways, on this particular morning, I didn't get up because I thought she already had something ironed. Well, my mom came to my room to get me and I jumped out of bed and headed to the laundry room where we keep our iron. As I began ironing, I had this feeling all over me that I had never felt before. I have never fainted before but whatever I was feeling seemed like the "fainting feeling". A couple of times, I had this feeling of blacking out but I would shake my head to regain my sight. At some point, I stopped ironing and put my head down on the ironing board for a bit. I stood up straight again, told myself it was well and I continued what I was doing. It got worse. I couldn't stand straight, so I walked out of the laundry room and sat on the floor in the hallway. I heard my mom come out of her bathroom and I jumped off that floor like my booty was on fire with the little strength I had left. I walked to my sister's room and asked her to please help me finish with mom's uniform. I went to my room, got under my covers and I started crying. I had been a couple of days late and I just knew something was up. I had known for a few days but I just knew I was gonna get my period. My phone buzzed and a text from Tosin flashed across the screen. He was just Tosin at that point, not hubby. I text him what happened and he called me immediately and did his best to try to keep me calm. While I was talking to him, my mom walked in to my room to check on me. The quickness with which my voice cleared was record breaking. I told my mom I was cramping, but I would be okay. She told me to go take medicine and said she would call to check on me in a few hours. After mom left my room, Tosin stayed on the phone with me until he got to work. Allow me to add here that I didn't lie to my mom. I was cramping. As a matter of fact, I had been cramping for days but just without a period to follow.
The next day, September 27th, Tosin and I planned to meet up in the evening so I could take a pregnancy test. We had dinner first and then headed over to his place. When we got there, he helped me with some school work before I took the test. Yeah... I was in school for my masters degree and I had an assignment due that night at12:00a.m and I wasn't going to take chances and wait until after I took that pregnancy test because man... there was no telling what my state of mind would be depending on the result. After the assignment, I took the test. It was one of those pee on the stick.. 1 line-not pregnant, 2 lines-pregnant deal. We waited for what seemed like forever to me, and then Tosin checked because I was too scared to. He told me it was 2 lines and for a minute there, I really thought he was playing. I was honestly waiting for that "Got ya!" Yeah... he never said it. I walked up to the test, picked it up and examined it. I looked at the box it came in to make sure 2 lines really meant pregnant and to also see a picture of what the 2 lines on the box looked like. Uh huh... shapes, numbers... all incomprehensible to me at this point. Of course, I took a second test and it was the same. And then it hit me! I started crying because it wasn't supposed to happen like this. I was supposed to be married and then I was supposed to have a special thing planned on how I would tell the hubby and family. Mid thought, I thought about the fact that I just found out I was pregnant for the first time and I was crying not necessarily tears of joy. My sobbing got louder because this was not how I wanted to remember my reaction to what was supposed to be great news. Tosin tried to calm be down but I don't think I heard a word of what he was saying. I got up and told him I was ready to go home. Getting an abortion was not an option. I didn't have a heart for it; physically, mentally, or emotionally. My life was about to change drastically but in the mean time, how in the world would I break this to my family!
Two days later, I got a package and flowers in the mail from Tosin. When I opened the package, there was a box of pre-natal vitamins staring at me. Tonight, I looked through my texts with hubby and went as far back as to this time last year and three days before the 27th when I text him that I was late, he responded with this... "Here's what I can assure you, if you happen to be pregnant, I'll be there for you 110% in every way. If I have your parents and family's support, and you say yes, I'll marry you as soon as possible and be more than the best husband/father you've ever dreamed of"... And my God is he keeping to those words!
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| My test. And yes, I still have them... I sorta kinda keep everything. |
Maybe one of these days I'll tell the rest of the story...
